Serenity Now...

Today got started with me getting more information about my ex and "F". Apparently before Christmas, when I had already gone back to the states, my ex had a solo gig and "F" was there with her, being outwardly affectionate. A few days later they were seen again by my source, at a club with other people. My source for this information was separate from the others I have been talking to, and had also confirmed that "F" was definitely the one making the moves, and once again my ex seemed uncomfortable about it. Like I said before, it could have been because there were people there that knew me, and my ex could have been smart enough to at least make it look like she wasn't into it. I don't know. I think trust issues may become a problem for me in the future because of all this. Ugh.

I am working really hard at letting this information not bother me too deeply. I do think about it of course, but I know that doesn't accomplish anything - they are still gonna do whatever they are doing (if anything), and I am wasting my time dwelling on it. I am sick of wasting time. I want to move forward here, for myself.

I haven't heard anything more from my ex. I am unsure if I will. I made it pretty clear that she would need to contact me next if she wanted to. It's terribly hard to be the bigger person with the information I have, but a good test of patience and endurance on my part. This will make me stronger somehow, I am sure of it.

Other than that, it's been a pretty lazy Sunday. I spent a good deal of it reading. I took a walk. Oh yeah, and I have a new mission - to sell a bunch of old crap on ebay. My best friend from high school has begun selling some of her old stuff and is making some money. Apparently people will buy almost anything! I think I may make it a project tomorrow - to take pictures and list a bunch of stuff. Can't hurt while I am unemployed.